Tuesday, July 31, 2012

married without children

So, I've learned something happens when someone who got married around the same time as you...gets pregnant.

My awesome cousin, Jenni Winn (now) Hansen, is preggo!  She's having a little, cute baby and I'm so thrilled for her!

She got married to her sweet man, Josh, 1 1/2 months before I married JD.  We were planning our weddings at the same time and both had them in Northern Utah.  Hers was in Manti and mine was in Salt Lake City.

Then I found out she's pregnant.  And, I suddenly got super,....jealous.

And I felt this feeling to be incredibly strange.  I was so happy for her.  And the other three cousins between JD and I that we have that are expecting beautiful babies.  And I hadn't gotten really baby "jealous" after those couples got pregnant.  But the difference was, they were older.  They'd been married for years.  Jenni and I both just got married.  Jenni and I are both the exact same age.   And now she and Josh are already beginning their family.

JD and I both have prayed and agreed that now is not the time.  We want to have our own space, i.e. not living with my parents.  We want JD to have a steady job, i.e. not be looking for a job.  We want to have at least a bit more of my education finished, i.e. at least my Associates Degree done.

Still, I just felt this pulling at my heart.  To have a little baby that was mine in my arms.  To shop for cute baby clothes.  To have late nights caring for my child.  To kiss scraped knees.  To sing them to sleep.  To just have a little tiny someone to be my own. 

Then, I realized, that's just not me and JD's story right now.  We're still trying to figure ourselves out in our marriage.  We're still trying to establish some kind of income for our family.  We're still trying to get the basics mastered.  Once we figure things out further, you can bet we'll start planning for little Megans and JDs to be running around.  Watch out, world!

For now we'll just keep preparing ourselves for that great blessing. And I'll just keep pinning cutesy tootsey baby things in Pinterest. 

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

my blessing

Our First "official" Valentine's Day
February 2011

My husband is probably one of the greatest blessings of my life as of lately.  Especially this morning when I lost my wedding ring.

Seriously, it was tragic.  Here's the story: Last night, we had a ward party at a pool.  I got in the water with my niece and swam with her.  I didn't want to lose my ring in the pool, so I put my rings in my purse.  This morning as I was getting ready to go to work, I couldn't find them. 

I. Freaked. OUT.

I ran into our bedroom screaming and crying for JD to get up and help me look.  Mind you, he was still sleeping.  He remanied very calm and went through my purse while I was still in hysterics.  He then sat me down, held my hands and said a wonderfully sweet prayer.  Thanking Heavenly Father for me and asking for help to find the symbol of our great love for one another.  After the prayer, I felt a little more peaceful.  However, I was still just trying to pull myself together.  So, my husband went outside to my truck.  And, somehow, he found it.

You may or may not know this, but I have a tendency to "panic" pretty easily.  It's something I try to deal with, but sometimes I just can't help myself.  But my husband knows just want to do and what to say to keep me calm.  He never panics, he never gets upset with me when I get anxious or worked up.  He's truly my blessing in my life.  When I get worried or upset or scared, he always comforts me.  I'm truly a lucky woman to have him in my life.

The end.  Also, I probably need to finish my filing before blogging at work...bleh, oh well.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

only a horizon

Like my lovely friend Annie wrote here, it seems loss and the potential for loss is surrounding us at this time.  My grandfather's health is deteriorating quickly.  I have had some recent health problems as we prepared for the wedding.  Two of my dear friends recently lost their babies during pregnancy.  Today my parent's dog, Moze, had to be rushed to Evanston to an animal hospital there.  And, last night, we received word that my sister's childhood best friend, Dani, and one of her children were killed in a car accident.  

 Dani and LeAnna were incredibly close in high school and after they both had their first child.  They were on sports teams together, they went to young women's activities together, they were in the same date groups for dances.  Dani spent so much time at our home.  When Dani and LeAnna were in high school, I was around 6-7 years old.  Dani treated me like her little sister.  She played with me, came to my birthday parties, told me stories.  I can't recall ever seeing her put down others or say anything negative about others.  She was a wonderful example and I'm lucky to have had her in my life.

Death is always a possibility.  Death can happen to people we never want or expect to lose.   But I find comfort knowing the death is not the end.  Families are forever.

Life is eternal, and love is immortal,
and death is only a horizon;
and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight.
~Rossiter Worthington Raymond

Tuesday, July 17, 2012


Someday I'll update and blog with more pictures.

Someday I'll get a new camera that actually works so said pictures aren't craptastic cell phone pictures.

Someday I'll have my home's construction finished.

Someday I'll pick a paint color for our bedroom that we both like.

Someday my husband will have a job that he absolutely loves.

Someday I'll fold our laundry and put it away.

Someday we'll finish unpacking.

Someday I'll take a lesson from my husband and get good at organizing.

Someday I'll have my degrees and won't need to stress about classes.

Someday is not today...

Saturday, July 14, 2012


JD: "You know the thing that sucks about this marriage thing?  I will probably never get to fall asleep watching Star Trek: Voyager again."
Me: "We can watch Star Wars..."
JD: "Not the same, Megan."

Me: "Okay, Riley.  Let's go to the parade in town!  Do you want to go?"
Riley: "But I wanna watch TV..."

My Dad after slamming his finger in front of my niece: "Oh bastar....blastered...blastered, yeah that's it."

My Mom: "My friend started reading 50 shades of grey..."
Me: "Why is your friend into porn?!"

JD while we played Lego Harry Potter on the Wii: "Why is this so hard?!"

Face it, The Office is my favorite show.  And it has ruined me.  And I'm okay with it.

If you haven't watched it, I suggest you drop what you're doing and go watch it on Netflix.  Right.  Now.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012


Well, it's official.  We have a "we're married" blog.  My old bloggity-blog just wasn't cutting it for me anymore.  I decided I wanted to make one for JD and I and our adventures as a family. 

Here's a little preview of our wedding day:
Exiting the Temple as husband and wife


The Bridesmaids and GroomsmenPhotobucket

Smiles and Cake Cutting at our Wedding Dinner

So, now we're living up in Wyoming.  I work for an attorney.  My hubby is seeking employment.  We're happy.  Except for the fact I've had the flu 3 times since we've been married.  I also sprained my ankle.  We love being together all the time.  We love playing games together and spending time with each other.  Seriously, he is perfect for me.   I don't know what I'd ever do without him.  Stay tuned for more of our geeky adventures together.